Saturday, February 09, 2008
Chinese New Year has just ended!
Well, too late, but Gong Xi Fa Chai anyway!
This year's new year celebrations... well, it's not much different from previous years, except perhaps we had catered food this time and it was held at my Aunts house... (oh, it's not at bedok lol... she shifted to pasir ris)
Nothing much different... all the usual banter when we see each other, the mulitple red packets being dished out... the
Lou Hei flying all around... and the people to laugh with and poke fun at...
It's Chinese New Year ya... time for some R and R yups...
This year, we had a few missing people overseas, some missing Red packets (my uncle suggested i go carry out a "search and rescue" to find my missing ones) and lots of laughter...
Much of the energy of the party, i must confess, came from the little ones...
Yup... most of my "nieces and nephews", even if they had grown loads since i last saw them (one of them grew as least twice in height), they were still hyperactive, inquisitive, and non the less shy in dishing out physical abuse to older guys (us) just for amusements' sake...
Yup... i'll never play any games that requires slapping hands or anything with them...
Still, they were uber cute and everything... their shrill exclamations of joy puncturing the air, their happy smiles lighting up the faces of all the adults around them, and of course... the havoc they wrecked upon the whole place... haha...
Too bad i couldn't take any pictures or anything... Ns phone you see...
Well, looking at these little guys made me think about past Chinese New Years...
I wondered, whether i was anything like them when i was young, so carefree, so unconcerned about whatever's happening...
Thinking back about previous years... i thought about the way i had changed everytime i went to Chinese New Year Celebrations with my relatives.. not much to be honest... but i guess i became more vocal, less shy, and just perhaps... more sociable?
I always thought to myself, that perhaps i wasn't sociable enough... shutting people out of my life just because i have others.
That's utterly stupid...
As such, many a times, i think about the way i meet people... yeah.. i'm a shy guy, believe it or not...
It doesn't take much to get me talking... But these days... after some time in army, and december... things change... quite alot...
I feel... aggrieved sometimes... but unfortunately.. there's no two ways about it...
Whatever will be will be...
We all have dreams.. and even though i know some are surreal...
Some are simply out of reach. And some are plain impossible..
But i dream of only the simple things that would make my family happy..
Would make me feel... less "abnormal".
I just don't know...
Well, this two years... i'll just make the best i can out of these two years, to make them a fruitful time in NS... then... i'll look forward.
As the SGTs always say...
Whenever you are at your darkest hour...
Do not fear, for it can only get better..
And you will see the light at the end.
To those who worry, who fear, who do not wish for the inevitable...
Have a little Faith.
Happy Chinese New Year!
Walking beside you at;
10:15 AM
Friday, January 04, 2008
Wow... it's been... more than a month since i last typed here?
It's been ages...
Actually, i can't even remember when was the last time i read the tag board. lol...
But well...
Firstly, the previous picture... was not about chem, maths or the glasses... lol... it's actually about something else... and it isn't about mugging in the dark or something. lol.
So Jh and weiyi... chem is not bad... neither is maths the worst either... i think econs beats the lot...
And yups... been back from Taiwan...
Taiwan (17th to 23rd) was a pleasant trip... cooling yea...
Good thing i cooled down... For in Taiwan... i realised somethings...
You can say i learned it from the bunch of people i went to Taiwan with;
Remy, Seow Wei, Biscuit, Sam, Iven, Justin, Chin Pin... but i only learned it through... experience? Either way... the conclusion was simple, and... since then...
I've learned to do what is accepted...
It's already January, and it really feels funny not having to report to school to start dishing out the homework to the respective teachers...
But yeah... can't think too much about that... army's knocking on every enlistee's door, and i'll be damned if army ain't on their mind...
But still, i shall do what every ones doing now, and start musing about army...
It's gonna be a good two years (actually 1 year 10 months lol) away from studies, friends... and i suppose, the little joys in life.
It's not as terrible as it seems... unless there are some strings you can't afford to... cut...
I can understand some of my friend's feelings...
When we go in... life is rigid... rules must be followed... and contact outside is minimal...
That's where... all the guys fear a common thing...
You know... losing contact with family, friends (especially female friends which they are interested in hint hint), and yes.... losing girlfriends and all..
Someone mentioned to me earlier in the year about his fears... of other older guys making a move on his female counterpart while he was serving...
Truthfully, i didn't know what to make of it...
So i just said something about trust..
It's hard... obviously... i have always believed in continual contact... apparently couples who... abstain from communicating with each other... (eg one in poly, one in JC) end up having difficulties... connecting. Take time constraints, diffferent ideas, different interests into account, and its a forgone conclusion.
Of course, jealousy is something everyone must deal with here...
But then.. is it good to be jealous? I recall somewhere.. something once said, it's good to be jealous.
That only proves how much you like something, how much you wish to possess something, how much you wish to be closer to someone.
I used to think something along the lines of this... but not anymore...
Many reasons, some more silly then the rest..
And yes... the fear of losing someone special is always there... and still, trust remains the only thing that wards against the fear...
So i tell my friend... there must be a valid reason for the two of them to still go on strong ever since... last year? So certainly, there must be enough trust to see that the both make it through... =)
But instead of going on about such stuff, army also provides... us with an opportunity to work with people we may not have come accross before... when with the SJI SA guys, nowadays the talk is mainly about the army life, the nimcimpoops the come across, whose intelligence is so bamboozling that they could make a 5th Grader cry...
Then again, there are some people.. like a poor guy on the game show "Are you Smarter Than A 5th Grader" who couldn't do 2X5...
Gosh.
But yeah... NS gives you the chance to meet both brilliant and also bumbling people... and people have told me that their army dudes will become one of the closest friends in their life...
There's something about adversity that forces people to work together... and when people all have a common enemy (NS, BMT SGTs, big wigs etc...), its often drives strangers to form partnerships... and forge closer bonds...
Nothing like a good catalyst for friendship...
So while you lose some (hopefully not)... you gain some too...
Also, there have been funny rumours about NS...
Like some who say all the Navy people turn... Gay? I don't believe that actually, but i do believe that constant male contact throughout two years can have a funny effect on some...
Also, someone suggested that the government sends the guys to NS, so that minimal female contact ensures that most of them become more open to any female... guys who go in there stare at any girl that walks in.. something about lowering standards or something (O.o no offence to any female)...
Some people say that NS also dulls your mind and makes your incapable of the simplest arithematic problems... like my friend recounted after going in, he couldn't remember how to use Maclaurin Series... or for that matter, how to intergrate. Well, NS is all physical... so i suppose its kinda okay if you end up less intelligent after a while...
But other than complaining about the future... It's time to be grateful for the past.
2007 is gone... and 2008 is here... so exciting! lol.
Euro 2008 (without England lol), F1 (if those freaking cars crash, its gonna be messy in Marina), NS (duh), Olympics (maybe we might be able to acheive something... i think).
2007... marked the end of our studies in the first phase of our lives...
We are no long children, no longer students (except for the girls going Uni), and now adults... 18 being the legal age for alot of stuff, it's good to embrace your maturity... and swear when there's no more student concessions...
Its been such a long time gone... when you can still remember your primary school life...
Play, eat, study, play, sleep.
Secondary school was very much the same....
Eat, play, study, Eat, Play, Sleep.
JC was... slightly different...
Eat, study, Eat, play, Eat, Sleep... (too many small breaks to eat small quantities...)
Then will come NS for the guys...
Eat, tekan, Eat, tekan, Eat, tekan, Eat, tekan, sleep/sentry...
Oh wells...
End of a chapter, the beginning of another long one...
Adult life calls, and many have started working already...
Lets just take a moment to celebrate the youth lost...
And embrace the future when we become mature individuals...
No more fooling around the canteen throwing stuff at each other,
No more disturbing classmates with random scandals and random pokes,
No more hairchecks, skirt checks, or school rules...
Guys, welcome the way of the botak...
It's time to lose that youthful innocence for that mature insight on life...
Oh well.
Walking beside you at;
12:45 PM
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
It's been a long while.. since i last posted something here..
Feels odd to be typing, but well... exams are over, so its time to do some typing. Haha...
Actually, I haven't updated for such a long time, (or rather, ignored the whole blog altogether), is due to the fact i have been busy...
Playing computer (what a sinful thing, playing non stop for 5 days), going out, and of course... attempting to sleep.. (which i must have failed miserably in...)
As a result of doing too much in too short a time, i ended up with a blazing headache which eventually cumulated in me falling ill for some time...
The timeline is something like this... (can't really recall, and i attribute that to the constant thudding in my brain throughout the week).
Physics ended on the 20th.. Ended up in Vivo with the SJI bunch, playing with Chum's excellent camera (first time i was impressed by a camera), watching Beowulf (because Nigel refused to watch Bee Movie), and having fun with a $10 Carl's burger and speculating about Gold Dust. Lol.
21st... i have no recollection i think... apologies to the people involved if i had gone out =X
22nd... i think thats where the whole headache thing started... because of playing too much computer in too short a time?
Went out in the afternoon to meet Ashiq, Nigel, Brian, Chum...
After that, went with Nigel to play pool with Chum for a short while... before he had to run...
And Nigel and I met Brendon for dinner... Lol. And we had an interesting discussion... hmm...
23rd.. Went with Lyn to watch Bee Movie. Haha
24th.. Headache was probably gathering pace by then... went with Fish to Seow Wei's church... It was cool yups... met the other SA people, like Jonathan and Shawn and Linus and Darren... and the other girls, who i haven't completely registered their names yet... Except of course, Seow Wei and Hsiao Ens... Lol. Had fun though!
25th... Sunday? Erm... i can't remember what happened on this day. LOL. i think i went out to eat. I think. =X
26th.. Was supposed to meet my class guys for shopping... But dammit. Headache was beginning to have serious repercussions... and i fell sick. Lol. Trust me to play till i have a fever...
27th.. Spent most of the time at home resting... With a ringing headache and Cough. Oh wells... Crashed early... But couldn't sleep anyway. Zzzz.
28th... which is today!
Went to school to play Bball... still kinda felt wasted cause my head was thudding.. But gently only! lol. Anyway, had fun shooting... and went for lunch... and had a visit by Fish...
Well... sleepless nights (i blame my pillow) and headaches aside, its been a fairly interesting week... even though i stayed awake on night to consider the reasons for something occurring..
Still, shall not mention too many things for now... i still feel a little rocked from that head pains...
but i got this email...
It's called,
"THE ART OF ILLNESS"
(The email was in ppt form, so i couldn't copy it... but the spelling had some issues... so anyway, heres the gist of it...)
If you don't want to be ill...
Speak you feelings...Make decisions...
Find Solutions...Don't live by appearances...Accept...Trust...Do Not live Life Sad...Yup...
Some of these chain mails are truely inspirational. Like one about a butterfly which I received...
But what i thought about when i read this mail... was... about being vocal...
And airing your issues, your problems...
About talking to others..
Perhaps it doesn't apply as much to those who aren't close to you... and only to those who are... but well... hiding everything isn't the best option really...
It's like storing a virus... hoping to keep it within you... so you won't infect others...
But once it builds up... and it bursts...
A bigger virus is gonna hit everyone.
I was thinking about how my friend said every morning, he came to school happy. Until he saw my expressions in the morning, and everything looked so "emo" and all. So I was kinda like a "mood killer" last time. I didn't know that, till after the Exams. Well, it would have been good to tell me earlier, i don't mind the criticism, as long as i have the chance to change it.
Similarly, i feel there are many things that have plagued my and other's lives... some of which i feel are my fault, and some which i feel are caused by my friends. But it would be really nice...
to eventually clear all grievances that happen... or happened for that matter.
I blame my lack of expression... most of the time, i don't say what i think...
And on a few occasions, i say what i don't mean. Accidentally. But perhaps.. i did it for another reason; some other reason... Because i didn't want to lose sight of shore, and not because i wanted to occupy that island. It's a different thing..
Even though you can't take back what you said.. You can make amends for your error.
That's something i hope... to clear all the issues i had in my days... from secondary school days to the end of JC... before i pop into army.
Feels like karma..
But i know, certain things can't be changed.
No matter how hard you try.
Walking beside you at;
10:57 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
Its been almost a month...
But i finally have a reason to come back and type here.. for now...
And yep... call it emo or whatever, but it still affects me pretty badly...
With the approaching exams, everyone begins to feel the pressure... certainly, it's not as easy as it seems...
And to be bugged by other issues besides studying... almost feels like a cardinal sin...
But yeah...
Today was a normal day... punctuated with a number of conversations with some friends...
The first was with another friend when i was sitting down on a bench in school... and we were just talking about random stuff...
Till he mentioned something rather disturbing to me... such that i was speechless for a while...
It made me think really... if it bothered him quite alot...
Wouldn't it bother me and my side?
But yeah... i must admit, i grin and bear it most of the time...
It's just my personality... as changable as the weather im afraid...
Cause, i'm... a kind of "reciprocate" person...
I do... what others do to me most of the time...
A smile... and i definitely smile back..
A frown... and i wonder why... and probably frown back...
Quite silly really... but sometimes, i can't help it...
I almost feel like an emotional mirror all the time...
Switching whenever someone mentions it to me...
Oh wells.
Another friend told me, that if there were any problems, just shelve them. For this few weeks.
I havn't really thought about the implications yet... but he only told me that... because he said my frown was really getting other people down...
So i'll really try not to let my own problems bog others down yah...
Start the day with a smile.
And end it with a bigger one. XD
Unless of course, the day is really not worth remembering... lol...
Oh and... i certainly don't like being whacked by a load of people... especially those i'm not aquainted with. Haha...
But then... someone told me i don't express my emotions, my thoughts...
Openly.
Well, i'm not one who will wear my heart upon my sleeve...
I don't vocalise much of what i feel inside.
Because i don't really think it would do any good to weigh others down with my problems... they have their own set of issues...
Even if it bugs me so much, i don't wish to burden others with my fears...
And instead, i tend to internalise, bottle up...
It's bad; i know.
Everything i feel unhappy about... stays inside.
And it stays inside... untill an appropriate time...
But i always find a way to forget them...
Through the joys i see in life...
Goofing around with friends...
Enjoying a little Iced Milo...
A little prayer...
Even standing at the top floor to enjoy the wind blowing upon my face..
All these little things.. are special to me...
Many people don't appreciate the small things...
Prefering the huge things... the greater the joy, the better, the more satisfaction.
But they don't realise, that such things are hard to come by...
And that, the small things are everywhere...
Many don't appreciate the importance of communication.
Don't they find it hard to talk to someone, who they see merely once a month, and the only thing they say is "Hi?"
Yeah, people tell me, it's okay... only aquaintances...
Perhaps, a little bit more talking, more sharing, more time, more chance...
And the person wouldn't just be a aquaintance.
Maybe a friend.
Maybe a buddy.
Maybe someone who will change your life.
It sure feels this way... But caught up in the daily issues that lay seige upon your life...
We tend to forget how things could have been different. If we had paid more attention to them. And if we become so caught up in what we wished we could be, we end up losing contact with what we were... I'm guilty of such too...
There's this friend of mine, in NJC now...
I don't talk much to him actually... but i do miss the stuff he does.
Be it praying...
Be it smiling and breaking out into song...
Be it randomly surprising friends...
It may be uncool. But who cares? He certainly doesn't.
It's his personality; his ability to ignore the public scrutiny, the expectations of others, to forge a character unique to his own. And endear himself to his friends.
He certainly isn't afraid of what people think of him...
Perhaps it may be due to a combination of factors... but... he's rather unforgettable. Haha...
And if he were to talk to me now...
He would probably tell me to pray. =)
And i will.
Walking beside you at;
6:13 PM
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Recently, i had a series of weird dreams...
It is often said that our mind plays tricks on us...
But most of them have a figment of truth in them...
And even so... when it feels so real... everything...
The first few were extremely odd...
If u dream u were walking to the guy's toliet, and someone grabs u into it when u open the door...
And u gasp in surprise when the person is a girl in a guy's toilet. Lol..
If you dream that you are walking alone down the path at the side gate towards school... and suddenly, u are transported and appear on the Jacob Ballas Bridge... when you look back... you see a small boy walking across the bridge... growing younger with every step he takes.. until he looks across the river and sees you. And he waves and everything just flashes past you in streaks of green and gold...
But the one dream that was pretty strange... was in fact a combination of what i saw in my life...
Or i think i saw anyway...
Odd... but well...
I only remember parts of it...
But for convenience sake, lets just say, "me" is when i see myself...
It starts innocently enough... i was at school walking... home...
Until i realise i wasn't walking with anyone i knew... i was with a group of people who i didn't know... but i was still talking to them nonetheless...
And then, when we walked towards the gate, i saw... "me". Well, i saw "me" walking by, and i said "hellos.."
I saw "myself" wave back...
A flash of light, then darkness... and i was speeding down the corridors...
Towards the 4th Floor... and i walked past the door of my homeroom at C401...
And I saw "myself" sitting inside drenched by the morning rain... so i chucked my umbrella behind and went to sit down next to "me"...
Then another wave of colour...
And i was speeding past the classrooms...
Into one of them... and i was looking into the eyes of... someone i knew... i felt like saying something... but instead i reached out to pat her hair... and out of the corner of my eye, i saw "me" walking past the corridor...
I thought to myself, lucky the windows were one-way...
And another flash of colour...
I was looking around the corner of a white house... but i decided to walk towards the front... and i saw "me"... so we both walked into the house door...
And suddenly, i was in Weiyu's room... looking at the messy bed... and i walked out... to get something... and then i walked in, and Jia Hao and "me" were sorta looking all over the room... so i said something...
And i was at my computer... playing Audition (Impossible. LOL.). Then my house bell rang... and I went to open the door... and "me" was there, and we both went back to my room... and i continued playing the Com... i realised it was Jia Hao's house...
I remember i was scolding "me" about something. Lols.
When i turned to the screen...
A huge burst of colour...
A spinning sensation...
A colossal Skull...
I was alone in the middle of the fountain in Suntec... the huge bronze structure above me... with the water cascading down all around...
I looked up...
And i saw a Shadow on the top of the fountain...
I gripped mu katana (absolutely no idea how i could have carried the thing to Suntec)...
And jumped up to face the shadow...
But it was no shadow... And as i approached it...
I saw myself... or rather, the image of another person...
And we both slashed at each other...
And i woke up.
I had absolutely no idea why i dreamt such a thing...
But it really felt so certain... everything except the last part...
So real..
Almost like seeing myself from other people's point of view...
I don't know...
But it's all only a dream...
And the series of dreams preceeding this... i hope they aren't real.
If they are...
Well, it's gonna be alot more complicated...
Walking beside you at;
2:46 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
This silence...
Is not golden.
Walking beside you at;
1:58 PM
Friday, August 10, 2007
I feel heartless. I just can't explain it...
Oh well...
National Day's just gone by!
But i spent National Day mugging... unbelievable...
But then, i believe,
National Day = Studying for the Nation.Definitely.
Studying is the in-thing now... people all over mugging hard for their prelims...
And i'm happy I have Jia Hao and Fish to mug with...
Somehow...
The times i spend mugging with them are one of the best things in recent times...
I don't count out mugging with my classmates, as they are swell guys...
It's just a SJI thing i suppose...
Because at least i won't ever be unhappy with them around... except for a few occasions where they really went overboard... hahas...
Yup... and of course, i'm rarely moody around with the class people... mainly cause i can turn to them when i feel down...
I admit... it's funny to watch Biscuit and Remy bicker... uber funny...
And Justin and Chinpin are hilarious in their own right...
Then there's Dylan... lol...
Shenghan, Ken, Chanjing to provide us limitless entertainment as the day drags on...
And Zhehui with the occasional random moments...
Iven with the serious yet amusing persona...
Sam to fill us in with special info we never hear about...
And there's Seow Wei, who's someone i can talk to about alot of stuff...
Barring the fact she's one of my closest "relatives"... haha...
There's the SJI guys who i can confer to when in doubt...
Mornings would have been so much more boring without them...
Life on the whole would have become mundane without them...
Of course, the mornings wouldn't have been similar without the 3 "sisters"... haha...
And of course the random people i meet all over the place... plently abound randomly...
Yeah... they all make life extremely interesting in SA...
With the occasional quirks... lol.
Still miss some of the old pals i had in SJI...
Wish i could see them more often...
But wells... prelims are coming up... and i wish them all the best...
Including the sec 4s, who are about to face the biggest hurdle so far in their lives...
Not gonna be easy... and definitely, i'll be asking around when i pop back... lol...
Oh wells... wish everybody all the best for the prelims!
May you get whatever results you guys want!
Oh... and i remember a friend of mine talking to me about something... which resurfaced recently...
He had been having a strong relationship with someone for a couple of years... until it began to feel tension in recent times... probably due to his upcoming sec 4 prelims...
And he talked to me about flaring up once recently...
What happened was he was out one day... and he caught her with another guy...
At least he didn't show anything... he saw her... smirked... and walked off...
She got back to him that night... and he didn't believe what she said...
I didn't really know what to tell him... because i wasn't too sure what to do...
But for certain, he was rather angry at her reluctance to tell him... about the guy...
I remember i told him to talk first, shoot later...
He did...
At least they are still holding on...
But i understand what... he felt... even then...
But now, i truely understand what went through his mind that day... after some musings...
I'm sure there wasn't any trace of betrayal... i doubt so...
But it wasn't the going-out-with-another-guy thing that bothered him so much...
It was more about the trust.
He told me, "I don't understand why she won't tell me she was watching a movie with him.."
I recalled i said, she probably didn't want to worry him... and he merely shrugged it off...
Now i know how he felt...
Even though she might really have been afraid of bothering him...
He certainly wouldn't have minded, im sure, if she had told him who she had been going with...
But of course... he shrugged it off...
So i told him...
That if he didn't really bother that much...
would it mean he didn't really care at all...?
He was stumped for a while... then he replied.
His reply... didn't really shock me... but puzzled me for a while...
Then i thought... the choice was his to decide...
Whatever happened... nothing changed for the two of them...
At least from his point of view...
Lol.
Hopefully, boy, you knew what you were doing...
And all the best, for your Prelims...
Walking beside you at;
9:23 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
Today was such a terrible day...
And when i reached home... i didn't really do much... except to wait... and wait...
And when i decided to pop online to check my mail... this came along...
And i was really stunned for a moment... but i've decided to post it up here...
Don't give up.....
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.
The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo, He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
Even though many of us have problems, there's always a simple solution to whatever the problem is. It's just the fear of the problem, and the fear of the effort we need to put into the solution, that often drives us to failure.
But all of us have something to aim for...
And we shouldn't give up...
Today, when i was particularly down, i met someone who i knew since january... and even though we don't talk often, i spent some time talking to him in the cafe after i left the library...
But wells... we talked about stuff... and really... he was the listening ear i needed to find... even though we weren't exactly the closest pals...
Even a person i thought i got along with pretty well didn't really bother to answer... even after calling via phone, and calling his name like 6 times, and he still didn't bother. Oh wells..
But i'm really grateful for that friend who actually could tell what the problem was... and for talking to me... Thanks loads...
And to the person who i'm still waiting for.. i'm really sorry... yups...
And i just hope that u received my message...
Walking beside you at;
4:53 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
Another long time has passed, and yet, we all grow older as the year comes to an end...
POC... passing out ceremony...
Yeah... it was nice...
It really felt like i was graduating from SJI again...
Only this time, it was graduating as a CI.. which is very different...
Still, there was the same empty feeling i had in sec 4...
Time was short, and Weiyu and I decided not too address everyone during the ceremony...
But well... i shall say a bit of what was on my mind...
To the teachers...Thank you all for supporting me throughout my return to SJI... i really appreciate the help you all have done... especially Mr Lee...
I couldn't be more grateful for the assistance and the many documents he helped me with, during the period when i was the camp coord of the sec 2 ATC... thank you very much...
To the sec 1s...I'm afraid i don't really know you guys very well... because you all came in when im leaving... but i know you guys are really happy and all... hope you all really keep it up...
To the sec 2s...I didn't get to talk alot to you all... but during the times i have done so, i found you all a very pleasant bunch... with the rather noisy ones like Li Xu to the quiet and strong ones like Kay Guan and Samuel... all of you have made rather deep impressions on me... especially when i took you guys during ATC this year.. yeah.. it was a great experience...
To the sec 3s...
How should i start... there's alot to say... hmm...
Well, basically, the sec 3s have perhaps... affected me in many ways...
i definitely can remember alot of things about them... from the time i took them in sec 4... all the way till now... Yeah...
Though some of you changed alot, many more remained the same...
It's appalling really... what some of you have become now.. haha... so much older, so much more different, so much more mature...
Though guys like John havn't grown much; giving me the same funny troubles everytime... haha... like when the whole bunch of you bringing weapons to school... lol.
People like Nigel... though you don't know it, i read alot into the msn conversations with you... and yeah... i get to understand stuff i normally don't see around the place...
People like Adam... who is able to... change things... because he was meant to...
People like Aik Seng... who are able to get the work done... whatever the effort needed...
People like Sasin... quiet and unassuming... but efficient to the core...
And the untapped potential that lies behind the whole lot of you... one of which, i really would have liked to see develop would be Brandon... maybe i didn't really get through to him in 2006...
And people like Daryl... who... had so much to fight for... everything to achieve... and he never failed to live up to the expectations... only to be brought down by something he might have overlooked...
Yeah... There were many firsts for this batch of boys... who turn into men...
It's time to plough, to sow, to water, and to grow the seeds of success...
Only through your combined hard work... will you all be able to develop the plant that is SJINP...
And perhaps, one day, you all will see the fruits of your labour...
To the sec 4s...I must admit i don't know much about the group that spends their time in the HQ, but i must really congratulate the bunch who have led the whole unit so amicably and effectively...
True, you guys weren't really progressing when you all were sec 3... but come sec 4, there was a huge turn around for many of you...
People like Moses, Bryan... really changed...
And people like Weijin, Paul, PoXian, Kang Jing... yeah... you guys did what we thought you would do... and without a doubt, did alot more than what we ever thought you guys would have...
Special mention to Weijin... not because he was the SI... but because, he never failed in what we set out for him to achieve... He knew it was going to be tough to gather a group of lost swallows... to direct them in the right direction, to fly with them...
And i'm proud that he did... Admittedly one of the best SIs to grace the unit since Philbert... i believe...
To the incoming CIs...I really wish you guys all the best... though i guessed more or less that you all would be split, after i realised that we were still registered under SJI, even after we graduated...
But no matter where you are, not matter where you go, i know you guys won't forget SJI...
All the best, fellas...
To the CIs...Weiyu and Johnsten have stood by me for so long... and in many ways, they have helped me grow...
Yes, Weiyu still constantly disturbs me, and Johnsten does throw in the occasional word r***, but they still have helped changed SJINP... particularly Johnsten... perhaps that's why i didn't want him to leave this year... because SJINP needs him. And some things need not be spoken really... things like the bonds our CIs share with each other... thats something great...
And certainly, i wouldn't forget the one and only Ronald...
Perhaps the person i am most grateful for this 2 years, would be Ron...
It went back a long time really... since the start of December 2005... all the way till 2007...
Ron was always there... and he helped me in everything i did... from ATC prep, to planning, to trainings, and to even pool and lan lol...
And most importantly... he wasn't there because he was made to... he was there because he wanted to...
It wasn't just a two year thing for him... but a lifetime of dedication... and i really salute that...
But to me... he isn't just a senior, not just a mentor, not just another SJI student. He was also one of the friends i really liked alot...
And it was really great to see him again...
And this time, i would really like to thank someone who really really changed my life this two years... and that would be Ronald...
It's been a plesant two years of service...
Thanks for the mug, sec 3s... i sense you all couldn't find one which had any inkling to granite... =X
As the new batch steps up to take the place of the old...
I only wish for a better future for you guys, and that you will enjoy your time in SJINP.
Ora Et Labora
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10:26 PM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Today's the 7th of July (7th) of 2007 (7th).
Seems like a lucky day...
Though i wonder why 777 is lucky and 666 is not.
It's Live Earth concert today...
Save the earth! Lol.
Spent the morning at Ngee Ann Poly having a meeting...
It was somewhat fruitful... we did manage to move further...
But with all the HTA stuff being pushed into our TP...
Can't say it gave room for creativity...
Today was AP2007...
It was a really interesting affair...
But words won't really describe it...
Pictures will...
Oh and pity i couldn't pop down to East Coast...
Though i think it would have been interesting... but the second part of the Sms was a little irrelevant lol. That person wouldn't have been able to make it anyways...
But thanks, Sis, for asking... haha.
After the parade... went with some of the sec 3s and 4s and CIs to pizza hut to eat...
Then went home after that...
Hurridly... oh wells.
Some words...
So easy to spell...
Yet so hard to say...
Sigh. If you ever felt that you wanted to say something...
Something important to you... and perhaps might be important to someone else...
And yet you can't.
Because.
You can't.
For some reason why. And you ask yourself why won't you say it..?
And the only answer you have for yourself is...
Forget it. It doesn't matter anyway. So what?
To many, the less said, the better.
To some, it is
everything.To me.. it was everything. Not so now.
Walking beside you at;
11:37 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Ah... came back after a long while to see my tagboard overrun...
Lol.
So i decided to reply here...
(eahy) Yups... its of great importance to us... hahas...
(kelly) Hellos! yeah, i definitely remember you... but not exactly make my memory come back yeah... haha... maybe u did contribute... lols..
(weiyu) uhh... whats with the overtaking thing? haha... no way you can overrun anything you don't own... and besides... just throw in a tag board... posting a comment is uber long winded...
(jia hao) ah yes... mr jap teacher... says who you dont teach jap. -.-
and speak for yourself man... i dont see your tag board... lols.
(lyn) hmm... whats strange? Hopefully it isn't affecting u much...
Block Test 2 has just concluded...
And begins the final chapters of JC life...
Much of our lives have been hovering around studying. What to do?
It almost feels foreign to sit around here and stare at the computer without trying to memorise a list of differenciation formulas or trying to remember how a friggin quarterary protein looks like..
Oh wells... it will all definitely pick up come August...
But for now... it feels great to walk around without thinking about that unanswered question at home...
Ah... still, others are already studying... preparing...
Where has all the breaks gone to?
Come JC, there hasn't been a single holiday which i havn't spent studying...
Partially cause they put exams after the holidays...
It's supposed to make you study... i don't know if that works...
Well... time to face the facts... there's not gonna be a break... till the end of the As...
Not when other schools are busy preparing for the final hurdle.
It's quite distracting actually... when you think that it's time to take a break, and it turns out others are busy studying... and it kinda makes you want to study more...
And when all that life has been drawn out of you... you feel...
Tired, exhausted, deflated...
And everything around you feels different from before...
Using the computer feels so different... even playing games makes you feel guilty...
Eating... must eat faster... so can rush to do work... sigh...
Withdrawal symptoms for now...
But soon, it's back to studying...
As a number of my friends said, now's a short break.
Come next week, time to pick up the books again...
And for other JCs, it's all mugging-mode now...
Well... JC1 was fun... and like they all said, JC2 became painful...
I certainly don't look forward to school next week...
Gone are the days when you could look forward to running off to secondary school...
And have fun...
Now, the only fun thing to do in school would be to... sleep.
Sigh.
School's out, no fun.
School's in, no fun.
The only time it will be fun will be when you leave school.
Then again, there's army. Lol.
Walking beside you at;
8:49 PM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
It's been 19 days and i can't even remember what i last typed here...
Ah... blame the exams... never got around to type anything, and spent a large portion of online time searching for certain key items and certain documents...
Just returned from ATC... and before that, famine camp...
My memory's about to go...
I forgot half of what happened during Famine camp...
Lol...
I really regret it... The camp was fun... And i had alot of fun and made alot of cool friends!
Some of which, i think I'll probably never forget... haha...
But i can't remember much of it now..
Perhaps it's cause i turned my focus to ATC...
Or perhaps it's cause i have bad memory.
Or maybe it might be due to the fact a that my mind was totally wiped after the camp.
Involuntarily.
It doesn't really matter what i feel about the matter.. Cause other people always are a rung higher up than you ever are. No matter how rich, how strong, or how determined you are, there are some forms of authority that you must obey, no matter how you feel.
That's authority.
That's the kind of authority that caused a friend of mine to give up something he loved alot.
And that's the kind of authority I'm supposed to love.
How interesting.
No matter, i was really happy to go for ATC... because of many reasons...
But probably the main one was for the younger dudes who were going.
Or maybe it's just cause i felt better outside.
Either way, ATC was a very fun affair...
Though initially, me and Weiyu didn't really chat with the other instructors (we were from Area 15, and they 6), we eventually did by the second day, and the whole camp became much more fun...
Yeah... CIs can behave... quite unexpectedly... haha...
Yeps... had alot of fun talking to the whole group...
All of them...
And especially when they all thought my name was "Sze Wei".
LOL.
And the sec 2s were alot different from those i talked to last year in A15...
These guys and girls were... alot more open, more interactive... But of course, some were alot more defiant...
Still, it was fun talking to most of them, cause they didn't mind talking alot...
Though a few of the girls were especially whiny, and a few guys defiant and grumpy.. the whole group was generally acceptable... even funny sometimes...
Yup, working with A6 was fun... but still, there's something about working with your own people...
And i look forward to seeing what happens at ATC next year, whether we join A6 again, or we return to A15... either way, I'll look forward to either area...
Yup, thanks to A6 for the memories...
Especially one...
It wasn't particularly significant... but it seemed to dig up some old thoughts that ought to be buried along time ago...
The second day, during the end of the Activity cycles... i was just sitting at the assembly area and watching the field... And Kelly was observing the sec 2s at the far end, and she wanted to pop over to watch the kayaks being brought in. So we both wandered over to the beach side...
She was watching the kids, and i just looked at the horizon... and suddenly, i was hit by a strong wind, and funnily enough, a certain memory just flushed into my mind.
Oh wells...
The salty taste of the water spray and the wind just made it pop back out...
Ahh... Ironically, that day was the 19th of june, and a year ago, it was my first ATC as a CI.
Somethings are never meant to be forgotten, it seems.
Back, back in time, back to the future.
BT2 is next week. It's been an eventful 5 days, with a total of 20 hours of sleep over 4 days. No wonder i still have a cough.
And still, i keep thinking... other things are more important.
They are.
But not this year. Next year, and further on, it will be.
But not this year.
Walking beside you at;
10:11 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
Ah... been so long since i last checked...
I blame the Lego World Soccer game i downloaded on my handphone... Lol.
Well... holidays are here again...
Barring the impending BT2s coming, its a perfectly normal holiday...
Lolling around at home, and trying to figure out how to listen to music and chant chemistry formulas...
Not much has changed here...
Except..
Theres this strange person who has been smsing me random stuff...
Even though i've smsed back, "who are you?", the person smsed back twice... on two seperate occasions...
The first was totally random sms, and the second, which was sent 3 times, was regarding something like "busy for tuition, so tell amanda cannot go" or something..
Lol.
Still no idea who that is.
Got a new Creative micro photo zen! Been trying to find out how to transfer the playlist from my brother's other zen, as im too busy to slowly transfer songs...
Something went wrong, and the playlist was filled with...
6 How to save a life,
6 Irreplacable,
6 Fly,
5 You give me wings,
8 Come On over Baby,
7 My heart will go one...
And so on and so forth... too many songs in a inflated playlist.
Blooming messed up playlist. No wonder it was like a few hundred songs before i finished even transferring 5%. Lol.
My brother added a new camera to the family...
It's a... i don't know whats the name, but its a canon 7.2 mega pix camera...
Spend 30 mins playing with the camera... and i think the face recgonition software works for pictures on the wall!
Lol.
Been searching for songs that i've heard on radio...
Found a large number... no thanks to legal software... lol.
Ah wells. I'm poor.
Oh, and i've been listening to 1985 by Bowling For Soup.
It's catchy. Haha...
Hmm... time to visit my desk to go do maths again...
Yups... holidays...
Are like those holidays that the poor primary kids go through...
No more playing, plently of tuition, no cartoon network, and lots and lots of 10 year series...
No idea why that tiny kid on the road had a 10- year series...
X_X
Oh wells. Face it... if 10 year old kids carry 10 year series, for
PSLE, then it's time for the oldies to start muggin hard...
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9:07 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
One week away from the holidays...
But it doesn't seem like it's gonna be hols anyway...
It's been busy.. these two weeks... SPA and all...
And yep... must apologise to Eahy for being unable to hop down to VJ to watch him play....
Saturday, SAJC guitar concert...
And before that... yep...
I don't know why, but i appear to by typing randomly...
Something's wrong... i think i need to find out whats wrong..
Certainly not with the life i have now i think...
At least in recent times, it seemed so...
Maybe not so much now...
Still... for those who are taking papers now, i wish you all the best...
And those who are going to take them soon...
Prepare... lol...
Now, time to figure out why there's this empty feeling... hmm..
Walking beside you at;
3:04 PM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Ah... been so long since i last popped by... realised the whole blog's dying...
Well, so am i in any case, but at least it's not dead yet...
Well... 18... and still growing...
But i must say, this year's aging process was much more entertaining than last years...
Both in the positive and negative sense...
Thursday... and i turned 18...
My only gripe was that i couldn't take Napfa before i hit the m18 catergory...
Just have to run faster and stretch further... lucky those are relatively painless to work at...
Woke up, and felt older... really... i think i dreamt a weird dream that night... but either way... i was promptly reminded of my age by a number of friends sending their well wishes...
Thanks to all who smsed me in the morning!!
School was normal... and was surprised in the morning... haha...
Thanks to the guys in my class who tried to make my day better...
Thanks to Fish, Jiahao, Seowwei, Eunice, and Yanshan for the stuff they gave...
Sure, the reason for the geodude was a little blatant (never actually managed to shake that off), but the box was a real surprise... it was really nice and all... thanks guys... plus the funny comments in the card... certainly, im a lao ba... yes... im quite old... lol.
Thanks to Seowwei for that nice card... really... and the cute owl... i suppose it means study more... haha...
Thanks to Sam for that choir ticket... wasn't going to miss his last concert... before his SYF...
Thanks to Biscuit and Remy for the unknown gift... I really didn't expect you to give me that... but it's real cool.. and fits perfectly!
Thanks to Nizhen for the nice rock cakes... must have taken alot of effort to bake... i certainly know... having done brownies before...
I think they will taste superb... saving them for sunday... lol...
There's still one more... certainly the last, but definitely not the least... and it will be coming soon... and i look forward to it. =)
Well... thursday was a fun day...
Ended with my family enjoying a truffle cake... something special before the trouble starts...
Friday...
School as per normal...
But stayed back after school... to await the PTM...
Hung around with the class guys in C401, and talked about random stuff... ate and talked to lyn...
Followed Sam, Zhehui and Justin to the Guitar Room to watch them play guitar, after stopping by to listen to Fish and Jiahao poke Linda... lol... sometimes, i really think Fish is gonna get murdered by all the girls he disturbs one day...
After that, went with Fish and Jiahao to Broadway to watch them eat...
Watched a super old drama on "the 8 immortals", and marvelled at the fact "the underworld" looked so small... hopefully there are less sinners in that place...
Went back, and saw Jiahao off for MO... and Fish and i went fooling around near the Gym with the fitness fellas... played soccer with him... and realised i kinda couldn't keep my shoes on.. never actually tied them tight anyway... lol.
Then... went to walk around the lockers to pass Biscuit something, and went to the cafe to find lyn...
Well... left for PTM...
PTM... was not good.
Completely. Out of all fairness, i deserved it.
The criticising. The unhappiness. The eventual flare up. The punishment.
It only underlined what the teachers said. A eventual lack of academic confidence.
What was the point if you were better in other aspects? What would be more important that helping others? What was your sole purpose to enter JC?
Grades. Grades. Grades.Nothing else was more important.
I acknowledge that. It's a painful truth we all go through at one point of time.
But there's absolutely nothing you can do.
One word;
meritocracy.
The world waits for no man.
It's a massive race to the end.
And we all fight to reach the finishing line.
Those who fail... perish... jobless, helpless, poor... and eventually disgraced.
Is this what we want? To be in a dog-eat-dog world, to fight to the top, so we can survive, academically?
No. But employers don't need workers who are helpful or whatever. They need those who can generate an endless flow of income, so that prosperity will be around the corner.
With money, then you will be happy, they say.
How true.
You can't buy happiness with money, others argue.
But without money, you can't buy anything.
It's a simple truth.
Saturday. Left house to go out...
went out in the afternoon... and throughly enjoyed myself...
I really can't explain how happy i was... to escape from reality for a moment...
To enter something special... such a beautiful day...
Lunch, CJP... Then Lvl 9, Cine... and even the most werid time i had in months...haha.. I really appreciate what was done, and what happened...
Thanks so much. =)
Choir concert... and watched the choir sing their joy, their passion... and i felt something... a fire stirring within perhaps?
Yes, i adore you... i really do... haha...
And yes, i also adore you Lord. Thank you for watching over me... in everything i do... and the sins i have committed... and one of the greatest of them... yes... forgive me...
Tomorrow is Sunday.. i'll look forward to eating the rock cakes... at least they should be sweet...
And i wonder... why should i control... it.
Afterall... we are two
different entities.Different... but bonded together by will...
I'm grateful. It's been one of the best things in my life so far...
And even now... i'm feeling gratified... admist all the unhappiness... the anger and the forced animosity...
Something brought a smile to my face tonight.
Was it a smirk? Hiding troubled thoughts.
Was it forced? Just to divert everything.
Was it a grin? Out of happiness at past joys puncturing the morbid silence.
Or was it a bright smile, for the things,
that have brightened up the days of countless people,
that have lost all the pains of yesteryear,
that have shone through the despair and broken the frigid masks that hide the true emotions...
I'm grateful.
Walking beside you at;
11:55 PM
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I realised i forgot to reply to the tags on my tag board for a long time, and they grew too long...
So here are the replies...
(Maxi) yeps... i see you have become better... though i can't say she's been helping you in your decision...
(jus) lol... just did yeah... how bout yours? haha
(eahy) Okay! How much arh?
(daniel) Hellooooo toh! haha... hows it man... havn't seen u since you popped back for some scout thingy...
(PZM) Oop... a bit late... but yeah! the Lord has risen!! XD
(eahy) yeps... and you managed to get some too lol... but yeps... hasn't affected anything much... cos not many people try that here... lol.
(lyn) hmm... it's okay... i assume you havn't done it anyway... hahaha...
(david) uhh fish... don't quote the thing okay... i don't really like it at all... and if anything happens to you, don't say you didn't see it coming from her lol.
(YJH) yes mr jia hao... and still not gonna lend huh...
Hmm... today, followed the SJI juniors to Turf City to watch the X-country race... not that i was there for any job...
Was there for a meeting with the teachers...
And they talked about a few serious things... of which some didn't go too well at all...
Oh well... it's all gonna be ironed out on friday...
Hmm... and on the way home... there was sufficient time to consider alot of things... barring the fact that the bus was super crowded and i couldn't move much...
But... did alot of thinking... and... I suppose the end result was not something i wanted to happen...
Sigh... yet to face potential danger lurking around the corner.. it's coming soon... and i don't want it to be the catalyst at all...
And i think privatisation is a good thing. After getting a few quotes from a few people... well, their quotes were misinterpreted anyway, so it wasn't a problem... but still... privacy is something really precious... and besides... i've learnt how to close up... not a good thing to learn... but can't help it.
It's the environment that calls for a development of such a "skill". And i'm sure i'm not the only person who has this kind of thing...
Oh well... at least i know i won't shut off those around me...
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9:50 PM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Hmm... well.. it's been quite a long time since i last popped by... busy with other stuff really...
Oh well... thanks to Ron, i've got to answer this quiz thingy... about
my 6 weirdest/most unusual habits.#1: My mind must be playing tricks on me... cause occasionally, i have the urge to draw a sword from nowhere and flash it in front of me whenever i think of something irritating. Absolutely no idea why, but apparently it helps takes my mind of the irritatings things i was thinking about.
#2: When i eat burgers, the meat section always slips out... so in the end, i always eat the meat patty last... this applies only to Zingers and McSpicys. McChickens are eaten seperately, and Carl's burgers don't apply.
#3: I absolutely dislike eating all chicken drumsticks except those which are longer than 6 cm in lenght. Still havn't had a clue why i don't like short ones.
#4: I realised whenever someone tries to pat my hair, i flinch. Probably started doing that since sec 4 when for a period of time, my classmates were after my hair for some reason... right Eahy? Haha. However, only when a few people do pat my hair now, i don't flinch at all. Hmm...
#5: I can stand all sorts of shapes except those ovals with another horizontal oval inside. It gives me the creeps and reminds me of aids. Somehow.
So, i naturally avoid all things which have those in it.
#6:Whenever a bug enters my room, it triggers a series of actions that never changes.
If it flies, but doesn't crawl, regardless of it's size, i instantly draw a ruler from anywhere (only a ruler for some reason) and arm myself if i flies low.
If it crawls, and is puny like an ant, i blow it off the table.
If it crawls and is medium sized, i catch it in box, feel like tagging it, and later release it to the wild when i go to sleep.
If it crawls, and is huge (1 inch), i don't come back until Baygon is at hand.
If it flies and crawls... i'll automatically assume it's a cockroach and totally run out of the room. And don't come back at all. I hate flying roaches. Totally.
Ah well... i'll have to tag a few people i suppose...
And i choose...
Justin Pang
Dylan
Lyn
Eahy
Shaun
The SJI SAJC Guys! haha
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10:06 AM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Ahh.... Block tests ended on friday!
Sigh... what a relief...
But somehow, not doing anything has made me feel really weird...
So... i suppose i started doing work again...
Saturday, had AGM... for area 15 CIs...
Ah... the number of people who went... was erm... not to many?
At least most of the new people came... and i met a number of old friends...
Still, business is business... and though i suppose i was feeling a little cranky... it still went on okay...hmm...
Afterthat, went to eat at PS with the area, and we hitched a ride in Jay-jay's van, all 8 of us... and his driving is... absolutely crazy at times!
well... i suppose jerking the car back and forth while driving is, and giving random speed boosts while on the road was crazy enough...
No wonder there were no cars behind his van at the traffic lights...
But still, it would have been much more fun if his van had more cushions... haha...
Ate at pizza hut, where the guys had cheese overloads...
And thanks Ron for the huge pile of cheese... it really looked like pepperoni cheesecake...
After that... went home...
Well, technically home... sigh...
Still, i'm not complaining...
It was one of the most nervous nights i ever had in a while... and it was a little like a emotional rollercoaster.
Hmm...
Emotional rollercoaster...
Well... it's time to face the facts for some...
Block Test 1 is over... but the ordeal is only starting for some...
And i'm afraid. Very afraid for those who i know that might have to leave.
I just... don't know.
Today, my brother showed me his Bio homework assignment... and heck... it was like crap... literally...
Seriously, i have no idea why his school requires the students to study about preservatives and such stuff in food... lol...
Ah well... i suppose this might help in being a nutritionist in future...
Hmm... and a came accross a book which had this particular funny joke in it...
Perhaps one might have seen it before, but i end here with this...
John asked his father, "Dad, can you help me with my schoolwork? What is politics?"His father replied, "Well, let me explain graphically. I bring back the cash, so let's call me 'Capitalism'. Your mother is the administrator of money, so we'll call her the 'Government'. We take care of your need, so we call you the 'People'. We'll call the maid 'The Working Class', and your baby brother we can call 'The Future'."In the middle of the night John woke up and heard his baby brother crying. He checked and found that the baby had soiled his diaper. He went to his parent's room and found his mother sleeping. He called her, but she continued sleeping. He went to the maid's room, where, he saw his father with the maid. Finally, he returned to his room and went back to sleep.The next morning, John went to school and told his teacher, "Miss Tan, I think I understand what politics is.""Good, John. Please explain it to the Class.""Well, the Working Class is fooling around with Capitalism. The Government is sleeping, and completely ignoring the People. I looked, and saw that the Future is full of shit."
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10:46 PM
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Hmm... block tests are coming, and everyone's worried...
But on tuesday, there were more worried faces than anything...
Yes, cause the after shock of the earth quake tremors could be felt in SAJC...
Many students were rather... shocked by the sudden vibrations they felt...
Though i didn't feel the first one, Biscuit and Justin and I were changing when it struck.
So, when we came out, all we saw was Mr Lee sheparding us to the Field...
And we followed suit...
Oh well... what followed was a right mess... but at least it was organised in the end...
Then after we were sent back to class, we went for SPA, and right after we finished...
The second tremor hit again!
Lol.
At least we finished out SPA.
So we gathered at the field again... and our principal Mrs Lim decided that it was time to send us back home, in case the school collasped in rubble... which i would say would have been rather weird, considering the school was only built a few years ago...
Well, a few people said they saw the school buildings shift, a few noted that the bookshelves were practically wobbling, and a few more noted that students were running out while they were sitting there and trying to guess how many people were walking by...
At least there was no damage whatsoever... and no students hurt... physically that is...
Oh well... early dismissal yes... but i didn't go home.
And... spare a thought for the poor people who felt the full impact of the quake...
Right in the heart of Sumatra...
Yeps.
Take a few minutes to consider that Singapore will never suffer from a full-blown earthquake...
And be glad that singapore will never suffer from such natural disasters...
Because Indonesia was unfortunate to be struck 3 times in recent years...
So... tremors or not... we are lucky...
Yep...
Hmm... though i must comment, that my class got caught on camera...
Cause quite a number of people have mentioned it too me...
Oh well... i suppose that there's no harm done...
Ah... A level results popped out recently...
But i must say... mine was disappointing. Very.
And same goes with a large majority of our school students... which brings to mind...
A common idea shared by some people i know...
They question... the integrity... the honesty... and perhaps... what underhand things are going on...
But can't say much. Don't want to be accused of slander or anything...
Hmm...
And yah... i've decided... it's time to be nice and not naughty.
Haha... Might be a welcome note for a few certain people, and a certain someone... who have been wondering whats happening to me... i think i've been a bit wrong recently...
Maybe a bit edgy...
And quite moody too...
Either way, i'm sorry if i pissed off anyone in my current state...
I think i know why...
But i'm sure it's gonna change very very soon... perhaps as soon as tomorrow...
When i get good news...
Well... UTC was over... and only got a single thing to say.
Gold is within reach.
For the sec 3s and 4s. Just take that chance.
Block tests around the corner!
TIME TO STUDY!
And Orientation started today...
What a time for reminiscing...
OGs and everything... Oh well...
1 year passed so quickly for everyone.
Yep, they said the year will flash by for J2s...
Certainly, it will.
Walking beside you at;
9:29 PM
Monday, February 26, 2007
Ah...
And well.
It's been rather long. And drawn out.
But i've learnt the hard way.
Nothing online can be revealed too much.
There are a few reasons for this...
One of which has to do with my cca...
One of which has to do with my friends...
And one of which... because i realise the problem surrounding everything.
Post i shall.
Directly reveal my innermost thoughts, i shall not.
It's been rather long, and i've been online at irregular intervals...
Well...
It's gonna be like that for time to come...
Because of a few reasons... one of which...
Some of my friends know about.
Oh well. We'll see. Haha.
It will last, the way we are going...
Even though we had our doubts, and much misgivings...
It has taken off well... and we plan to just enjoy it.
Oh. Such a special thing.
Such a special word.
And just cherish it.
Cherish the time.
Trust.
Something important.
But i trust you. With my life.
More than what i show, more than what i say.
But it's true.
And. I don't show much.
I regret that. Quite.
But I just want to say.
I've never meant it more.
Than i ever had before.
UTC is around the corner...
And i've heard talk about worries that it might... be a challenging time for some of you all...
But.
Every journey has it's crossroads.
Some, just split you apart.
Some just leave you lost or confused.
But some lead you to what you are looking for.
And in this journey, there are many obstacles.
But by facing them together, you realise that it oftens brings you closer.
You don't really know why.
But it does.
And it makes the whole journey worthwhile.
When you know, that the memories are worth toiling for.
The bonds forged are worth fighting for.
Be it through whatever hardships, whatever pain...
Much as it seems hard to push on, the road is never long.
To those who know that hardship is around the corner...
Fret not... for there's always something to gain.
What's bitter to endure, is always sweet to remember.
Walking beside you at;
10:21 PM
Bloxorz